hmm... dad talked to me again last night (he talked to me the night before too. it lasted v long! from 10.30 pm to 12 am in the morning! time passes v fast im tellin you. it's
CRAZY! and i was
standing the whole time! my leg muscles hurt real bad after that. *ouch!*)... this time it was a rather short one. about half an hour to one hour. this time he said that i should take advance and continue with Sec 4 because it wasnt worth it wasting another year of my life studying Sec 3 work again. and that i had to work thrice as hard as everyone else to maintain in Sec 4 and pass my O's. that means eliminating the usual computer use, radio listening and watching TV unless i've finished my homework and revision. O_o that sux.
mum's gonna quit her job to be at home for me. i feel really bad... mum has already called Mrs. Chua (my form teacher) to tell her the final decision (to let me take advance). i have to work real hard then... i dont have another year to study Sec 3 work anymore. im taking my O's next year. die... must study real hard. no more relaxin till my O's are over. i cant wait to get this over and done with. i mean the exams and stuff. i need to do real well for my CA1 (Continual Assesment 1, we have 4 CAs a year. twice a semester.) if not i'll be retained. even my former form teacher, Mr. Lim, came to talk to me about my results! he said that after CA1, he'll look for me cause he wants to see my CA1 results. he wants my CA1 results to be good. he even said he wanted to see me 2 years later (with good O Level results) at the Graduation Tea Party with a lot of confidence. as i was crying, i just nodded my head. now im not sure what's gonna happen really.
i really dont want to talk about this anymore. i have to start planning for what im gonna do next year. i will have to do intense studying for the next one month and see if i can cope with it. dad say that it is scientifically proven that if one focuses on studying or stuff like that for 21 days, one would be able to adapt and focus on anything he/she wants to. im gonna try that out to see how true it is. if you really need to focus for a major exam or something, try doing this about half a year or 3-4 months before your exams. im doing just that. it might help. who would know if you dont try? ;)
skipped school today cause i wasnt feeling well. had a cough and a blocked nose. doesnt seem serious huh. alright, also partly cause i didnt want to go for the rope course. we have to pay $11 just to jump down the building?!
NO WAY! well, this is a rather long entry so im gonna stop now.
take care!
rocking on...
Marsha sang on Wednesday, Oct. 29, 2003 at 2:29 p.m.
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